unspoken dreams

Week 2 of my nationwide training. Lisland Resort, my second home in Urdaneta My ever loving Nanay and Yesha (AKA Chichay) After beating the heat of Pangasinan, I am now here in Pampanga. I am a little homesick since yesterday. I wanna be with my nanay. While working away from home and dealing with different people, this made me realize a lot of things. One of which is how much I value my parents. I've been lecturing and motivating people on how to work passionately for themselves and for their families so that they can withstand the heavy, demanding work they have. And all of a sudden, this made me stop and think. That I am also here. Tired of going from one place to another and still I have to be passionate and enthusiastic as I deliver my piece and I am doing this also for myself so I can support my needs and for my parents, so that I can pamper them. (since they're still working at their wonderful age of 65!) Every work has it's own challenges. And it's up ...

When you are brokenhearted , I  am close to you . Psalm 34:18 I know any heartache and pain is tolerable with His grace. He will never allow us to suffer for He loves us. As a matter  of fact, He gave up His own Son just for us. He is just waiting for us and His arms are wide open to embrace us. I may not have the strongest faith in Him in the world but I do believe in His grace and with that, nothing is impossible. I'm such a sinner but inspite of that, He continously love me, for I am His son, and He is my Father. I wanted to share to you this short article I just found; Father's Love Letter  When you are brokenhearted, I am close to you. Psalm 34:18 The LORD is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit. (NIV Bible) At our greatest time of need, when we feel the most alone, Father God is the closest to us. When our hearts are broken in pieces, He is very near to bring comfort and healing. We may not always feel His presenc...

For a few days now, I've been thinking to write down something about my college life. And to my surprise, a good friend of mine posted some of our hilarious college photos which inspired me to pursue this entry. I was batch 2007 of Far Eastern University with a degree of Bachelor of Science in Nursing. Yeah. I know. Nursing is not for me. Well, at least that's what I think as of now. I immediately work right after my graduation since I really do not have plans to be a nurse so I can say that I never had time to "rest". Well, no regrets on that. College for me is one of the most colorful part of my life. Ang daming first time! :) I met a lot of new friends and encountered different people specially with the nature of my course. Each semester I always think of shifting to MassCom or Journalism since that's what I really want but I guess you can figure out I did not. I opted to finish my course to please my parents. They we're thinking that being a nurse wi...

As I sipped my coffee and stare at the sunset, memories of you came rushing in my mind. My mind says move on but my heart is giving me a pounding no. I love you and you I really do inspite of everything that happened to us. But what can I do? You are happier now without me leaving me with no choice but to accept that decision of yours that you made even without telling me.  I feel so weak whenever with just a mere thought of you. Even though I no longer wanted to communicate with you, a single message is all what you need to melt my heart. How can I ever resist you? Moving with you seems to be one of the biggest challenge I have to face. I may have loved and forget people from my past but you are indeed different and special which is making it harder for me to live the life I have.  I'm praying for two things; That I may be able to accept everything that's happening to me right now for He has better plans; and that in the future, our paths will cross again and hopeful...

This song perfectly describe what I'm feeling right now. How can I teach my heart not to love you? Not to think of you? not to care for you? How? Please help me. How do I end up in the same old place, faced again with the same mistakes, so stubborn thinkin I know what is right, but life proves me wrong everytime, takin roads that lead me nowhere, how do I expect to get there, but when will I learn to just put you first. (Chorus) I come to you now when I need you, but why do I wait to come see you, I always try to do this on my own but I was wrong cause only with you can I move on. Can I move on. (oh) When I awake it's you that makes   me strong, and I know that you've been with me all along, so many times I begin to close my eyes and listen to my heart, with you life is so easy why do I   make it hard,   oh takin roads that lead me nowhere how do I expect to get there when will I Learn to just put you first. (hey!) (Chorus) I come to you now when I need you, but w...

"I do not love you as much as I did before." How would you feel if someone you loved so dearly will tell you this? I can certainly tell how. I was partly devastated and part of me already starting to search ways on how to rekindle our relationship. I know getting involved in a long-distance-relationship could be a shit. We need to be satisfied with phone calls and webcams and some chatting. But if you really love me, this should never happen.  I appreciate your honesty. I really do. Even if when you broke up with me, you told me your in love with someone else who is residing there. Then eventually you confided that you made that all up. I got confused but still, like an dumb asshole in love person, I believe in every single word that you say.  What pains me more is that you just let it happen. You did. You let go of me without even thinking and analyzing things happening between us. As a mature person, I was expecting that you will atleast give us a chance. A chance to wo...

Week 1. Done. I can't believe I'm doing this! Travelling all over the country to train my people. Twas indeed tiring and fun at the same time. Fulfilling in the sense that I have shared my knowledge and experiences to them and hopefully will serve as motivation and inspiration for them to work harder and be a better person.  Aside from work stuff, of course I have a lot of side stories and side trips. And my main focus? FOODIES!!! DAVAO Glad I met Telai and Kay. They're awesome! I mean the energy and passion are commendable! (PASSION SA SARCIADO!) After our work stuff, they broguht me to Lachi wherein it is the house of excellent cakes and pastries! With no sleep at all for more than 24hrs, all the cake I had made me lively and happy again! And I quote Kay,  " Sa cake ka na lang kiniilig."  Indeed! since I do not have a love life, sila na lang ang mamahalin ko! :) Lachi's famous Sansrival the aftermath New York cheese cake ha-ha-h...

Surprisingly, I just woke up one day that I'm not feeling any pain nor sadness. Or maybe I just got used to the feeling? Nevertheless, I'm okay now. I'm better compare before. I guess when you're busy, indeed you can't think of any negative thoughts which is my case last week. Right from the day my plane from Palawan landed in NAIA, I started working up to yesterday. Meetings. Interviews. Trainings. Briefings. Planning. Tons of emails.Yes. I am workaholic but I'm loving it. Indeed a busy heart and mind knows no sadness. Jollibee-happy! :) Next week I'm bound to go to Davao and Cagayan de Oro for training purposes. I feel excited. I want to experience how to handle a class from a different place with different culture from what we have here in Manila. *fingers crossed* Hope I'll be able to execute it flawlessly. :) And of course, side trips will always be part of my business trips. (haha!) Hope I can explore these palaces some more.  To my fellow Dav...

After falling in love and surrounding yourself with all those sweet nothings and you parted ways, next things to do is to move on. It's hard especially if you poured everything you got in the relationship. It's even harder when you realized how easily he gave you up. In a blink of an eye, everything's gone. He is gone. There's no point in locking yourself to those promises he gave to you after he left you. He left you. That's that fact you have to deal with. You are now on your own. Alone. Often times what makes it difficult to move on are those promises. We were fooled that promises are really made to be realized but no. Promises are made to be broken, most of them. Whenever you enter a romantic relationship, before it turns our to be a "trauma-ntic relationship", do not give everything you got. I know it's hard especially if you feel that "he's the one" (yeah, he's the one who'll bring hell into your life after) who has been w...

Amazing how time flies! One day I woke up and it was my birthday and now it has been a month since then. I had a great time ending my March since I went out with my sisters for an out of town trip. It's so cool whenever I'm with them and just having fun since this is something I really miss. We went to Palawan and had the time of our lives and together we tried so many new things. (eerr. maybe not so new for most of you. hehe) We went to the underground river and to my surprise that before you can even enter that underground river you have to cross the sea riding a small boat while being smashed by gigantic waves! geez. nahilo ako. pramis. But after seeing the wonders of nature, it was all worth it.. err. sige half worth it. kase nahilo talaga ako e. drop off port and a few meters away from the underground river putok feeding contest haha! that's 60ft deep! geez. Then, another thing I really enjoyed is our Honda Bay adventure. We went on island hopping an...

I hate to think about this but there are really some people who just get themselves engaged with someone because they just want to and not because that's what their heart has been telling them. After a few months or in some cases, weeks, they will just leave their respective partners. Out of the blue. Fall out of love? Naah. I don't think so. Of course they found someone else to linger on. I really hate people who do not take relationship seriously. I really feel sorry for those who were just left alone in a blink of an eye. But that's how life is. No matter how careful your are, at one point or another, you will encounter a person like them so better be wiser, tougher and firmer in making decisions and dealing with people. just saying.