unspoken dreams

    If I had my child to raise over again If I had my child to raise over again. I'd finger paint more, and point the finger less. I'd do less correcting, and more connecting. I'd take my eyes off my watch, and watch with my eyes. I would care to know less, and know to care more. I'd take more hikes and fly more kites. I'd stop playing serious, and seriously play. I'd run through more fields, and gaze at more stars. I'd do more hugging, and less tugging. I would be firm less often, and affirm much more. I'd build self-esteem first, and the house later. I'd teach less about the love of power, And more about the power of love.

I am hooked and totally interested with the topic on our Church. It’s about how to be a good parent and/or leader. It is a 5 – 6 week series of lecture if I’m not mistaken. Growing up without anyone by my side except for my tita, is somewhat weird and at the same time saddening. No. My parents are still alive of course but they have to work and with their busy schedule, they can’t manage to take care of me. And while growing up, I have very little memories with my siblings since they all moved out to study in Manila. As a young kiddo, there’s nothing more special than to grow up with people whom you know are trustworthy and loving that’s why whenever they visit us, we make the most out of it. As far as what I remember, they used to teased me and teach me with my homework. Most of the time, during my elementary days, I have to ask our neighbor who happens to be a college professor to teach me with my assignments since my siblings are not around and my parents do not have time. Ironic...

Bipolar disorder, which is also known as manic-depression or manic-depressive illness, is a curable psychological condition characterized by alternating patterns of mania and depression. It often begins in early adulthood and may last throughout life. The illness has no cure but it can be managed through appropriate treatment regimen. The illness has two forms. Bipolar I Disorder, which is the most severe form, is described as having one or more manic episodes that may cause substantial impairment in functioning. Bipolar II Disorder is described as having one or more depressive episodes with at least one mild to moderate manic episode that does not cause impairment in functioning. Bipolar disorder has two phases. The manic phase, or a period of emotional highs, is characterized by the following signs and symptoms: increased energy and activity, euphoric mood, extreme irritability, an inflated sense of self-esteem, a reduced need for sleep, a high degree of talkativeness, racing thought...

Sa maikling panahon na pinagsamahan natin, natutunan akong mahalin ka ng lubos. Hindi ko masasabi na ako ang pinaka mahusay sa mga naging boyfriend mo. Hindi ko din masasabi na ako ang pinaka perpekto para sa’yo. Pero sa maikling panahon na yon, alam ko pinakita ko sa’yo kung sino talaga ako. Kung ano ang kaya kong gawin para sa pagmamahal ko para sa’yo. Hindi ko inaasahan na mamahalin kita. Nagsimula ang lahat sa biruan at nagging seryosohan. Masaya ako na nakakausap ka sa araw araw. Akala ko dati mata ko ang laging naghahanap sa’yo, yun pala puso ko na. Habang lumilipas ang mga araw, lingo at buwan, lalo kong napapatunayan sa sarili ko na ikaw nga ang hinahanap ko. Ilang beses na ko nabigo sa pag-ibig. Ilang beses umiyak. Ilang beses nasaktan. Ayoko na sana sumuong pa muli sa gulo pero nang makilala ka, hindi ko na naisip ang lahat ng ‘yon. Mahirap at masarap. Yan ang masasabi ko pag tinanong ako kung paano magmahal. Pero sa sitwasyon natin, lalo itong pinahirap ng pagkakalayo natin...

I've been sharing a piece of my life to everyone hoping they'll get inspiration, somehow. I may not be a popular speaker nor person but I guess making them feel that we are all the same and I've been through the same things as they're going through right now. Flashback. After I graduated I immediately work. Twas hard. I kept it to myself. I did not tell anyone. All the while, my family thought I was preparing for my exam but I did not. I have other plans. Matigas talaga ulo ko e. I endured the 3-4 hours travel everyday. Yes. Everyday. I want this. But just like an old cliche, secrets aren't really secrets. I eventually told my parent. They were in pain. But I need to be strong. I need to prove myself. I moved out of our house. At first I lived with my sister but I have this feeling of akwardness or maybe because I really wanted to be alone. I need to find myself. Independence. Not long after I moved in with my sister, I moved out again. I rented a place of m...

sea of fluffy clouds earlier during my flight As of this writing, I am currently thousands miles above the Earth. I’m on my way to Cebu for another training session via Cebu Pacific 5J 561. Yesterday, I received a lot of weird yet funny comments. After I conduct my regular interview to all the applicants, the area supervisor approached me and staring at me. I asked her what’s the problem. She said; “Ang bait mo ngayon ah!” I asked her why; “Wala kang ibinagsak. Ang tataas ng ratings na binigay mo. Tapos wala masyadong negative feedback” Trying to control my smile, I just told her that they’re all okay and qualified. Some just need to improve themselves. Normally, I am a terror client. I often utter truthful comments and give very transparent feedback. Whenever I am stressed or pressured at work, no one can talk to me not unless I will puff a few stick of cigars outside. (yes. I went back to smoking but only when I am stressed. As in super stressed.) But yesterday is an exempt...

I blog whatever my mouth and heart can’t say. Call me coward. Call me non-sense.  Both you and I can’t do anything.  This is me.

I wanted to feel loved. But aside from that, I wanted to love someone. There’s nothing sweeter that a couple  that both love each other. No pretentions. No fake sweet nothings. Just pure love. I can’t remember when and how exactly I met you. Seriously. Sometimes I can’t relay to my memory. If only I can re format mine, I already did. But nevertheless, I liked you. Yeah. You. Of course you never knew that or maybe by any chance that I told you this stuff you thought t’was one of my jokes out of my f*cked up mind. I wanted to know you more but you seem to be too distant from me. I don’t know. Maybe because you are not interested to me. I’m just assuming. I’m not sure. Months passed by and we rarely talked. We rarely see each other. But still, you remained to be the one I’m eyeing for. Surprisingly, with a sudden twist of fate, I was given that chance to know you more. I was really excited. I felt you were drowned with all my questions and stories. Sorry for that. Forgive my stupid ...

How to turn an ordinary weekend into a a special one? Pack your things and go somewhere for a day. Just what we did last weekend. Remember those photos I've been posting in Twitter last week? Well, finally after less than a year of planning to visit this hidden paradise, nagkatotoo na! :)  Our journey to Magalawa Island This secluded island is located in Zambales which requires around 5-6hrs of land travel and 10-15minutes of boat ride to cross the South China Sea. Upon seeing the island, it was serene. There are only few people around staying in the island so if you really want to have a peace of mind and to stay in a place away from the busy, crowded places and beach resort, this is the place to visit. The island resort has approximately around 8-10 kubo, 3 nipa rooms, 2 AC rooms and numerous tents. Yes. They also have tents.  Bawal kunin e. :( I can say that the island is really preserved compared to other commercialized islands. the rooms don't have TV which w...

3rd week of my nationwide trip. Destination: Iloilo and Bacolod All work and no play will make me a piece of shit. I've been to Iloilo a couple of times but still I had very little time to explore the city. Last time I visited Iloilo, I went to Smallville and got drunk. (not so good haha) then aside from that, nothing follows. So this time, I made sure I will be able to experience something new. :) Jen, one of our trainers, and I went to Perri Todds where they serve enormous burger. Believe me, theirs is bigger than my face! And surprisingly, it really tastes good since I am expecting a little bit less for the burger. I thought because of it's size, the taste will be sacrificed but then again I was wrong. I really enjoyed our burger which can even qualify as a birthday cake! lol and on top of that, they also serve iced tea tower! The prices are quite reasonable (actually I think it's really affordable!) We ordered their special burger which costs Php270 and can be ...

I am really hesitant to blog this. First. I am busy. Second. I just don't find it necessary. But since this experience might just help someone, I decided to write this on my blog. The past. My ex broke up with me since he said he no longer feel the same. He is loving me less and less each day. i appreciate the honesty, but of course deep in my heart I am saddened by the fact that he is so lame to fight for our relationship. Inspite of all the shit that had happened to us, he still wanted us to be friends which I think is all crap. I am the type of person that really do not make friends with ex's. By choice or not. Things just go shit with my pat relationships. Having said this, I really need to pretend I am okay.Everyday. The Wake up Call On Sunday, I went to the church. And I felt like God was talking to me that day. One thing that really struck me was when the pastor said; " We need to die in order for us to live." Meaning for us to be able to live a hea...