unspoken dreams

Wala.naman akong issue sa pagiging single. Natutunan ko nang tanggapin na bibihira na lang talaga ang matatagpuan mo na seryoso. Madalas, ang makikita mo yung mga hunyango. Yun puro ningas kugon lang. Sa simula lang magaling at pag nakuhan na ang gusto nila, biglang magbabago hanggang mawala na. Paulit ulit na lang. Nakakasawa. Mahigit kumulang 4 na taon na kong single. Oo. 4 years. Imposible? Hinde. 4 na taon na ang nakakaraan mula ng makaramdaman ako na minahal ako talaga. Na hindi ako ginamit lang o kung ano pa man. Sa loob ng apat na taon, may mangilan ngilan din akong nilabas. Nakipagkilala. Nakipagtawanan. Ilang pelikula din ang napanuod ko. Ilang kainan din ang napagdaanan ko. Ilang lugar na napuntahan at luhang iniwanan. Dahil sa mga natutunan ko sa mga dati kong ka relasyon, naging mas maingat ako sa pagpili. Madalas bigo ako pero masasabi ko na naman na hangga't maari, ayoko na gawin yung mga dati kong pagkakamali. Kung may nakita ako na hindi maayos o hindi ko gusto, si...

I've been travelling a lot lately for work (well, I must say always) to the point na wala ako masyadong time for my parents. Yes. Being a bunso and (ehem) single, I am close to my parents by nature. We normally argue but that's our way of paglalambing. When I left our house today, Nanay held my arms as I bid goodbye to her. That simple touch said a lot of things. She's missing me. She wanted me to find a little time for them. As much as I would want to, I'm having a hard time balancing work and personal matters lately maybe because of all the changes and challenges that my area is going through right now. While I'm on the road, I suddenly recall what my late tita told me when I was still working in Manila. "Gusto ng nanay mo umuuwi ka lagi dito sa Bulacan. Wala man lang daw sya mamura." That actually made me smile. No. Not because gusto ko na minumura ako. But because I know she's missing me and I feel extra blessed that I have parents who are open he...

It's been a year that I went on hiatus from blogging. And for over a year, there are a lot of things that happened to me and obviously I cannot write them all in one entry. Haha. Well, let me see, here are the highlights of my life (ups and downs) since my last entry. 1. New Career - Yes. I finally gave up ony old job and took a bigger and tougher challenge. It's hard to say goodbye to people who've been part of my life for 4 years and to step put of my comfort zone but I guess I really need this so I can grow professionally and personally which I think I am now. This new job allows me to explore and to think even more for there are a lot of people depending on you. But what I like most about my new job is it allows me to be with my parents more frequently. They're not getting any younger and I'd like to spend more time with them.  2. I am a certified tita's boy. When I was only 2 mos old, my tita started taking care of me. No she did not adopt me but nana...