unspoken dreams

    If I had my child to raise over again If I had my child to raise over again. I'd finger paint more, and point the finger less. I'd do less correcting, and more connecting. I'd take my eyes off my watch, and watch with my eyes. I would care to know less, and know to care more. I'd take more hikes and fly more kites. I'd stop playing serious, and seriously play. I'd run through more fields, and gaze at more stars. I'd do more hugging, and less tugging. I would be firm less often, and affirm much more. I'd build self-esteem first, and the house later. I'd teach less about the love of power, And more about the power of love.

I am hooked and totally interested with the topic on our Church. It’s about how to be a good parent and/or leader. It is a 5 – 6 week series of lecture if I’m not mistaken. Growing up without anyone by my side except for my tita, is somewhat weird and at the same time saddening. No. My parents are still alive of course but they have to work and with their busy schedule, they can’t manage to take care of me. And while growing up, I have very little memories with my siblings since they all moved out to study in Manila. As a young kiddo, there’s nothing more special than to grow up with people whom you know are trustworthy and loving that’s why whenever they visit us, we make the most out of it. As far as what I remember, they used to teased me and teach me with my homework. Most of the time, during my elementary days, I have to ask our neighbor who happens to be a college professor to teach me with my assignments since my siblings are not around and my parents do not have time. Ironic...

Bipolar disorder, which is also known as manic-depression or manic-depressive illness, is a curable psychological condition characterized by alternating patterns of mania and depression. It often begins in early adulthood and may last throughout life. The illness has no cure but it can be managed through appropriate treatment regimen. The illness has two forms. Bipolar I Disorder, which is the most severe form, is described as having one or more manic episodes that may cause substantial impairment in functioning. Bipolar II Disorder is described as having one or more depressive episodes with at least one mild to moderate manic episode that does not cause impairment in functioning. Bipolar disorder has two phases. The manic phase, or a period of emotional highs, is characterized by the following signs and symptoms: increased energy and activity, euphoric mood, extreme irritability, an inflated sense of self-esteem, a reduced need for sleep, a high degree of talkativeness, racing thought...

Sa maikling panahon na pinagsamahan natin, natutunan akong mahalin ka ng lubos. Hindi ko masasabi na ako ang pinaka mahusay sa mga naging boyfriend mo. Hindi ko din masasabi na ako ang pinaka perpekto para sa’yo. Pero sa maikling panahon na yon, alam ko pinakita ko sa’yo kung sino talaga ako. Kung ano ang kaya kong gawin para sa pagmamahal ko para sa’yo. Hindi ko inaasahan na mamahalin kita. Nagsimula ang lahat sa biruan at nagging seryosohan. Masaya ako na nakakausap ka sa araw araw. Akala ko dati mata ko ang laging naghahanap sa’yo, yun pala puso ko na. Habang lumilipas ang mga araw, lingo at buwan, lalo kong napapatunayan sa sarili ko na ikaw nga ang hinahanap ko. Ilang beses na ko nabigo sa pag-ibig. Ilang beses umiyak. Ilang beses nasaktan. Ayoko na sana sumuong pa muli sa gulo pero nang makilala ka, hindi ko na naisip ang lahat ng ‘yon. Mahirap at masarap. Yan ang masasabi ko pag tinanong ako kung paano magmahal. Pero sa sitwasyon natin, lalo itong pinahirap ng pagkakalayo natin...

I've been sharing a piece of my life to everyone hoping they'll get inspiration, somehow. I may not be a popular speaker nor person but I guess making them feel that we are all the same and I've been through the same things as they're going through right now. Flashback. After I graduated I immediately work. Twas hard. I kept it to myself. I did not tell anyone. All the while, my family thought I was preparing for my exam but I did not. I have other plans. Matigas talaga ulo ko e. I endured the 3-4 hours travel everyday. Yes. Everyday. I want this. But just like an old cliche, secrets aren't really secrets. I eventually told my parent. They were in pain. But I need to be strong. I need to prove myself. I moved out of our house. At first I lived with my sister but I have this feeling of akwardness or maybe because I really wanted to be alone. I need to find myself. Independence. Not long after I moved in with my sister, I moved out again. I rented a place of m...

sea of fluffy clouds earlier during my flight As of this writing, I am currently thousands miles above the Earth. I’m on my way to Cebu for another training session via Cebu Pacific 5J 561. Yesterday, I received a lot of weird yet funny comments. After I conduct my regular interview to all the applicants, the area supervisor approached me and staring at me. I asked her what’s the problem. She said; “Ang bait mo ngayon ah!” I asked her why; “Wala kang ibinagsak. Ang tataas ng ratings na binigay mo. Tapos wala masyadong negative feedback” Trying to control my smile, I just told her that they’re all okay and qualified. Some just need to improve themselves. Normally, I am a terror client. I often utter truthful comments and give very transparent feedback. Whenever I am stressed or pressured at work, no one can talk to me not unless I will puff a few stick of cigars outside. (yes. I went back to smoking but only when I am stressed. As in super stressed.) But yesterday is an exempt...

I blog whatever my mouth and heart can’t say. Call me coward. Call me non-sense.  Both you and I can’t do anything.  This is me.